Running

I've been running for a very long time.
I don't know when I started
And I don't know if I can stop.
Some might say I'm running from a problem
But I like to think I'm running towards
Towards a something
Towards a some place
Some where I want to be
A life I wanna live
A woman I know I can be.
I'm running towards
Happy.

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They twirl me like a Christmas ornament.
Like a shinning star they could hold in the sun.
See how the colors dance.
Twirl me when you wanna see my colors dance.
Take me for a spin when you wanna see me shine.
Call me beautiful.
Tell me I'm pretty.
Take me for a spin.
Twirl me around.
And watch me shine.
Wind me up and watch me dance.
Watch me sparkle.
Watch me shine.
Watch me spin for you.
Look at my colors.
Marvel at their beauty.
Look at me shine like the sun, but don't get burned.
Watch me twinkle like a star just out of reach.
Don't reach too high.
You may fall.

MY THOUGHTS

I NEED MY THOUGHTS TO GO SOMEWHERE

A BUCKET

OR A RIVER PERHAPS

ONE DAY I RELEASED THEM IN THE OCEAN

THAT WAS A GREAT DAY

I FELT FREE

I WAS FREE BECAUSE IN THE OCEANS VASTNESS MY THOUGHTS WOULD BE SAFE

I DIDN’T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THEM BEING DISCOVERED

LIKE A WEIGHTLESS SUNKEN TREASURE THEY DRIFTED THEN FLOATED TO THE BOTTOM

WEIGHTED DOWN BY MY WILL

AND ANCHORED BY THE HEAVINESS OF MY SOUL

TODAY THE OCEAN IS NOT ACCESSIBLE TO ME

SO WHERE SHALL THEY GO

THERE IS NO SAFE PLACE AMONGST THIS DRY LAND

WHEREVER THEY ARE TOSSED THEY THREATEN TO RESURFACE AND HAUNT ME

SO I GUESS I WILL KEEP THEM WITH ME

BURIED AT THE BACK OF THE CLOSET OF MY MIND

HIDDEN UNDER THE BED OF MY HEART

SUPPRESSED IN THE DARKEST CAVES OF MY SOUL

THEY THREATEN TO SPILL OUT

IN TEARS

IN ANGER

IN DREAMS

THEY WARN ME:

IT’S TOO CROWDED IN HERE

MAXIMUM OVERLOAD

THE DAY WILL COME WHEN I CAN HIDE THEM NO MORE

Winds and Tides

WINDS & TIDES

My emotions swiftly change like the direction of the wind.

 Why is that?

 I truly want to be steady in my ways.

 Consistent like the tides who although change is at least measurable and consistent. 

But its so hard to be consistent with this ever changing world.

Or is it just my world that changes

I never know when

And then I never know how

I just know is

The “is” leaves me changing like the winds

If the “is” would be more consistent then I could be more like the tides

Change that is expected



YOUR FREE

Your Free

You’re free from worry and frustration that I might have brought.

You’re free from torment and confusion you sought.

I am no longer a burden to resist.

Nor am I another name on your list.

You’re free to go and do as you please.

Free to sleep with happiness and ease.

I don’t know what kind of man you’d thought you would be when you played and disrespected me.

I so carefully gave thought to the good times we saw.

And realized they out weighted the disappointments and every flaw.

My eyes were covered and unable to see the TRUTH.

And when it was revealed I would have never thought, YOU!

The frustration, the bitter anger I felt was nothing to compare to the thoughts that kept me haunted by night and afraid by day.

But it must be Gods will that you not stay.

So I will count it all joy with neither tear’s or sorrow for I know that joy is coming in the tomorrows’

REJOICE! 

YOU’RE FREE!

Love's Eyes, I Love

LOVE’S EYES, I LOVE


EYES I LOVE
DEEP EYES I LOVE
EYES THAT TELL A STORY THE MOUTH CANNOT SPEAK
THE EARS CANNOT HEAR
HANDS CANNOT MAKE
AND
FEET CANNOT TAKE.
EYES THAT PAINT A PICTURE OF WHITE AND BLACK
EYES THAT REVEAL COLOR AFTER THE FACT.
ONE DAY THOSE EYES WILL CLOSE AND NEVER OPEN AGAIN
THOSE EYES THAT TOLD A STORY AND NOT AN END

EYES I LOVE
LOVES EYES THAT STARE DEEP INTO MY SOUL
THEY BYPASS MY HEART AND RIP THE BRAIN FROM MY SKULL
EYES THAT MAY BETRAY
AND
EYES THAT TELL YOU THEY WILL NOT STAY
EYES THAT TELL YOU ‘ILOVEYOU’
EYES THAT LIE
AND
EYES THAT FRACTURE
AND
LEAVE YOU OUT IN THE DESERT SUN TO FRY
EYES THAT ABUSE
AND
SEND YOU TO HELL
EYES THAT HOLD YOU CAPTIVE IN A GREAT SPELL
EYES THAT STIMULATE
AND
EYES THAT AWAKE
EYES THAT SHATTER
AND
EYES THAT BREAK
EYES THAT DISAPPOINT
AND
EYES THAT CONGRATULATE
EYES THAT FRACTURE
AND
EYES THAT MAKE YOU WEIGHT THE POSSIBILITIES OF LIFE
AND
LOVE’S EYES THAT I LOVE.

A Reflection of my Soul

A REFLECTION OF MY SOUL

WHO I WANT TO BE

AND WHAT I WANT TO SEE

LIES IN THE DESTINY THAT WAITS FOR ME.
IT LIES IN THAT STORY UNTOLD

BUT REVEALS SECRETS AS TIME UNFOLDS.
IT HOLDS TRUTH TO THESE LIES

AND SHOWS LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS.
IT WILL REVEAL WHO LOVES

AND WHO PRETENDS
WHO STEPPED IN BEFORE THE WOMB DEPENDS.
WHO TRIED TO STOP THE TRAGEDY OF YESTERDAY
AND WHO STAYED AWAKE WITH WIDE KNOWING EYES AND WATCHED IT PLAY.
IT WILL REVEAL WHAT WAS REALLY IN THE HEART

AND WHO SAW THE TURNING OF THE WHEELS

IN THE MIND AS THEY CREATED PLOTS AND VISCOUS SCHEMES, BLIND.
NOT KNOWING THE DAMAGE IT WOULD MAKE,

NOR THE SUDDEN IMPACT IT WOULD TAKE

ON THOSE EFFECTED WHILE ERECTED

IN THE HEAT OF THE MOMENT,

IN THE TIME OF PASSION WHEN THE FLESH IS WEAK

AND THE MIND DOES NOT SPEAK.
THE HEART TAKES FULL CONTROL

SEEKING CONSTANTLY OF WHAT IT DESIRES MOST.
A RESTING PLACE TO MAKE THE SOUND OF RELIEF,

A SIGH OF NO MORE PAIN AND GRIEF,
NO MORE TEARS FROM SORROW
OR ENDLESS SEARCHES WITH HOPE FOR THE TOMORROWS.
WHO I WANT TO BE

AND WHAT I WANT TO SEE

LIES IN THE DESTINY THAT WAITS FOR ME.
THAT CAPTURES MY EYES AND TUNES INTO MY HEART.
IT IS A REFLECTION OF MY SOUL.
THE SYMBOL OF MY WILL THAT WILL ALWAYS MAKE A WAY.
THE THIN LINE THAT SEPARATES LOVE AND HATE.
THE TRUE MEANING OF WHAT BE THE ANSWER TO YOU AND ME.
IT IS A REFLECTION OF MY SOUL
NOT THE FOR THERE ARE MANY.
SOME GOOD AND SOME BAD, ALL BROUGHT TOGETHER TO MAKE WHAT WE HAVE,
ME.